If you struggle with alcohol, holidays can be triggering and stressful. Last night I made the mistake of letting my boredom get out of hand. I decided I would have one drink since I hadn’t had one in a while. Well, one turned into a hangover this morning and no church.
I was so disappointed in myself, devastated, and disgusted. I had worked so hard to stay sober all this time to blow it all. I really have to be honest with myself at this point, I may need a sponsor because I can’t do this alone.
The holidays bring so many triggers; because every bbq I was invited to had drinking. So I decided to hang in the house this weekend with my hubby, around him I’m safe because he absolutely hates me drinking.
I let the devil get the best of me last night, I kept thinking about my son, my life, my career, and tears just ran down my face. I was so down in the dumps all because I was bored. Wow!
Well, I haven’t given up on myself yet, I just know now that I will need that extra help. Thank you to all cheered me on sorry I let you down.
Ms. Fran
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Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others.
I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community.
I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness.
Iโm also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future.
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Every slip is an opportunity for learning. Connecting with a sponsor sounds like a great idea.
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