Yes I do…all I have done this morning is cry! Last night I got some troubling news from my son, who only has 24 days to go and it just breaks my hurt. It wasn’t anything bad, I just think this girl and her family trying to use him. (more on that later) I just keep walking around the house, listening to Christmas music and wishing my boy was home. I just want to spend a little more time with him before he goes off . I could fly there again, but the last time was not good(more on that too). I want him home, everybody keeps telling me I have to let him live his life. How can I just let go? My only son is going to jail, and I’m sorry I feel horrible today. All I want to do is drink and stay in bed. I had plan on going out today, but I can’t even bring myself to eat. It’s getting harder and harder as the days go by so swiftly. I look into his room and cry, cry and wonder what went wrong? I really don’t want to fall back into my hole, but I just can’t cope right now. Chat soon….