A Little Self-Doubt This Morning😔

Good morning, I’ve been missing the last couple of days due to a nasty summer cold. It had down and in the bed like usual. So I managed to get up this morning, still feeling a bit off, but I need to get some stuff done. As I got up to walk the pup, this wave of self doubt just came over me. Voices in my head telling me I’m not good enough, I failed, and things won’t get better. See I’m feeling really bad because I wasn’t able to make the trip with my son to see my grand born. It hurts me to my core, once again he needs me and I can’t be there. So I did a little fasting this week, praying that things would turn around but it didn’t. I wasn’t able to make the trip, and no amount of praying got me there either. Now I’m not upset that my prayers weren’t answered. I’m more upset with myself, because I didn’t didn’t have things in place financially to go out there. It’s all my fault and nobody eles’s. My son shouldn’t have to share his special day alone. Since I can’t be there, I hope he doesn’t hold that against me. I’m going to try and throw myself into work, so I can get it off my mind. Just really low today, just want to stay in bed with the covers over my head. This is the worst feeling….oh well I guess this too shall pass! Chat soon

Ms. Fran

Published by Olivia B. Shepherd

Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others. I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community. I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness. I’m also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future. Look forward to having you read my blog, 𝓞𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓪 𝓑. 𝓢𝓱𝓮𝓹𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓭 💋

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