Hello bloggers, it’s only Tuesday and I’m over the week already. No matter what I do, life just keeps throwing this curve ball my way. I could barely keep it together last night, had 2 attacks back to back felt like my life was coming to an end again. After getting up and moving around I managed to catch my breath and relaxed the rest of the night. I promise I have been trying, my mind just won’t let me be. Financially I got bad news today, husband decided to be an ass and my poor son looks worried. I have been trying to get myself back on track with my finances, but when you get a little behind it’s soooo hard. My husband decided today that, I’m not sick because I have a roof over my head and clothes on my back. He told me he needs a break from watering the grass because he’s tired. Me *blank stare*๐ณ Tired are you fucking kidding me????? Try battling this brain day after day. I work 2 jobs, take care of dad, try to keep the house together, busy being a mom and a wife. He all but said, I do nothing and my sickness is an excuse. My feelings are completely hurt, he constantly kicks me when I’m down. Can he imagine what I go through on a daily basis??? Do he seriously think I like feeling exhausted, confused, lonely, aggravated? All I can think about is WHY things aren’t going right for me. Believe me I’m more disappointed in myself than he will ever be, but damn have some compassion! My son isn’t handling his situation to well, the closer it gets to sentencing day the more he worries. The baby is due then also, and I can’t do anything to help my son. I feel so helpless!!! Dear Life….let up a bit please. It’s Mental Health Awareness week, maybe I should have hubby reread my damn book. Hell “We Don’t Look Like We Hurt ” do you get it jackass?????? I’m at work can barely function, my body aches and I have no motivation at all. Trying to hide in my classroom so no one will see my red eyes. Again Dear Life…..please let up!!
Ms. Fran
Olivia B. Shepherd 