Feeling Angry, Fat and Ashamed!

Good evening, so by now you all have seen my little video on my You Tube Channel (more on that later). I had the most awful experience with the second worst black doctor I have met, and it made me cry just a little while ago. I went in there hoping for some help and I poured my heart out to the nurse. After waiting for an hour in the back, I had to finally go out and ask was I next? So of course Mr. Cool Black Doc slides in, *blank stare*…hear we go, first he stood so far from me like I was fucking contagious. Then he proceeded to slap my tummy and tell me how fat I was!! At this point I’m thinking WTF??? what does this have to do with the rash I have and my anxiety attack. So after not letting me speak, he then told me my breast where to big and I had on the wrong, cheap bra. Cheap????? First off I don’t wear cheap anything much less bras, because I know that I’m top-heavy. So he suggested Sonoma, lol well are you paying Mr. Doctor Man???? I mean he was just all over the place, but yet to ask me how I was feeling or why I needed my meds. When I explained that my insurance didn’t cover Mental Health, he said I should quit my damn job.??????? Now, tell me if this was his opinion or medical advice? I almost wanted to go into my old mode and offer him a date, with a little dollar sign at the end, lol!!! Thank God I’m not that chick anymore. I just can’t believe how another black doctor has treated me because of my mental illness. We have to do better black people and get the word out. Mental Illness is a damn disease, so why do they take it so likely? He told me that I was going to die….duh you think????? Yeah I’m going to die if I keep seeing black doctors, now please don’t get me wrong that I don’t support my people. My people just have a strange way of dealing with mental illness and I don’t want any part of this shit. No one should leave the doctors feeling ashamed, feeling like they were less than because I wasn’t skinny. He made me feel like I somehow brought this on myself, because I’m not suffering from mental illness, I just eat to damn much. Well NEWS FLASH…..stress eating is a symptom of depression jack ass. I don’t know what black doctors get out of putting their damn opinion in with medical advice, but the shit isn’t cute and this is why so many black people don’t get damn help. So if I die, please show these post because some black doctor in South Carolina killed me. Please don’t come for me about well not all black docs are like that, freeze….I didn’t say all. Just the two damn dummies who I have encountered. You can play with Mental Health in the black community if you want??? Soon this will be an epidemic amongst us and we will be dying faster than bullets….chat soon!!!

Ms. Fran ( Depressive Diva)


Published by Olivia B. Shepherd

Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others. I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community. I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness. Iโ€™m also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future. Look forward to having you read my blog, ๐“ž๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“ฟ๐“ฒ๐“ช ๐“‘. ๐“ข๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“น๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ญ ๐Ÿ’‹

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