Not a Good Day๐Ÿ˜ž

Hello world, I’m finally stirring around and trying to get things done. Today just wasn’t a good day at all, I’m a little tired of these crazy brain moments. Yesterday I was on cloud 9, had my first Christmas party with the kiddos and the parents brought me plenty of gifts. I was so overwhelmed with the fact that they appreciate me so much. I have only been there 3 months and they are raving about me, I also received a massage gift card from one of my clients because he appreciates all I do. So why do I feel like crap today??????? I got upย toย do a few things and tried to hold it together because my son was home, but when he left I just cried my eyes out. My brain just went down south, “to do or not to do”, “to feel or not to feel”!!!!! I just can’t get it together to save ย my life, I just feel awful today. I laid in the bed no motivation at all, my body is tired and mentally I’m tired too. My husband asks “what’s wrong”? I can’t explain it and if I could I doubt he or anyone would understand. That’s the problem I have no one to talk with and if I did, I usually get the friend that tells me “it will be ok”, or the friend that pretends to feel my pain then roll eyes behind my back. I just can’t win for losing with this damn depression, I mean it’s taking over my life and I really thought I had come a long way. Guess not!!!!!! Oh well I will see what the night brings, maybe I’ll feel better tomorrow. Until then back in the bed I go with the TV and some food, the eating is starting to get out of hand too. If I’m not drinking, I’m eating and both are totally bad for me. I got nothing accomplished today and I’m so mad at myself for not being able to take some time for myself. Tomorrow is a new day….chat soon

Ms. Fran

Published by Olivia B. Shepherd

Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others. I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community. I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness. Iโ€™m also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future. Look forward to having you read my blog, ๐“ž๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“ฟ๐“ฒ๐“ช ๐“‘. ๐“ข๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“น๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ญ ๐Ÿ’‹

6 thoughts on “Not a Good Day๐Ÿ˜ž

  1. Sometimes we just have to accept that nothing will get accomplished and resolve to try again tmrw.

    Having a crappy day myself. I too have friends that say all will be well. Sometimes, even though they mean well, I agree, it’s not what we want to hear. Sometimes, the pen, and the bed are the only things that understand. Sometimes a good long nap will set me straight. Sometimes a long hot shower will do the trick. Sometimes, a good cry can be cleansing too as well as some comfort food. What ever works. It’s all part of the process.

    Hope you feel better soon.
    Sending hugs. ๐ŸŒท

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  2. Thank you for writing this. A lot of times I want to give comforting words, but I’m not sure of what to say. You put things in a different perspective for me.

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