Battlefield of My Mind!!๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Sitting here thinking how exhausted I was after working today. I like being tired from actually doing something with myself. So I’m laying down resting and my poor mind goes into crazy land. I just can’t help thinking about how can I get in hands reach of my destiny. I mean what’s my purpose? What do I really want to do? I’m really not excited about anything right now at all. Basically as I stated previously I’m just working because the bills need to be paid. That’s not good, not good at all. It puts me in a funky mood, and all I do is lay here and look up at the ceiling. Is tomorrow going to my day or the next? I believe in God and his timing, but can’t fathom what I’m waiting on. I keep asking Him to direct my steps, but it seems like I’m going backwards. Was I wrong to stop cleaning? Was I wrong for getting my degrees? I mean I just don’t know! I’m almost 40 years old and I feel like a 20 year old. This can’t be happening, or am I over thinking it? Probably, but I just want so much more. I think about retirement and old age. This just bothers the hell out of me. I see people on my Facebook page looking happy and enjoying life. I often wonder do they have a retirement plan? Do they have money for a rainy day? Hell most of the time all them people on FB be lying their ass off, lol!! I guess you can have the life you create on social media. Well I’m going to take my meds and lay it down, hoping tomorrow my mind will get back on track. I do know this is my depression brain trying to move back in, but I’m trying not to let it. The mind is very powerful so you have to be careful what we let sink in. I will say it again, for once I want to have control over my on mind. Wishing you all a great night!! Hugs 


Published by Olivia B. Shepherd

Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others. I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community. I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness. Iโ€™m also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future. Look forward to having you read my blog, ๐“ž๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“ฟ๐“ฒ๐“ช ๐“‘. ๐“ข๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“น๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ญ ๐Ÿ’‹

One thought on “Battlefield of My Mind!!๐Ÿ˜ฉ

  1. You will succeed my beautiful friend, one step at a time. Do not let your mind be troubled over tomorrow, tomorrow will take care of itself. Sweet dreams ๐Ÿ™‚ God Bless xxx


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