Super Woman Syndrome, Not Me!

So toady I finally got up out of the bed and made lunch for me and the hubby, yesterday went to doctors and they decided to up my meds and said I should think about some out-patient therapy. Yeah somebody else to tell my situation to who isn’t listening, oh well I made lunch today because I slept half the day and my hubby looks at me crazy. I mean how do you explain to someone who you’re not being lazy and you really wish you could get up!  Does he remember the fabulous “Diva” he married? Does he remember how I worked several jobs, clean the house, and manage to raise a fine young son. I wasn’t always this way, my brain has completely taken over at this point and I hate it just as much as he does.  I feel ashamed and embarrassed that I this Strong Black Woman can’t seem to “pull it together or “snap out of it”.! I pray about it day and night and sometimes wonder what I have done to have to suffer this way.? I’m strong or at least I use to be because that side of me has been lost to this illness. I would give all the clothes, shoes, and nice purses away to be normal again. Just to be able to get out of  bed and enjoy the beautiful sun, but I can’t.  

“PUTTING ON A FAKE SMILE SO YOU DON’T HAVE EXPLAIN WHY YOU’RE NOT HAPPY”

Published by Olivia B. Shepherd

Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others. I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community. I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness. I’m also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future. Look forward to having you read my blog, 𝓞𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓪 𝓑. 𝓢𝓱𝓮𝓹𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓭 💋

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