Morning walks with my puppy usually clears my mind, but then I return home and the sadness starts to sink in. Some days are better than others, but today I just feel unusually sadden and for the life of me I can’t explain it.!!!! Had a small anxiety attack last night before bed and didn’t get much sleep. Tossing and turning, up and down, my mind is on an emotional roller coaster and I’m stuck up in the air. I read a scripture this morning and it read: “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens” Ecclesiastes 3:11 and I wonder when is it my time? Feels like I have been in this dark clouded season for years with no end in sight! And when you can’t explain how you are feeling to your own spouse, it creates some sort of wall between us when I need him the most. I’m falling apart slowly, hoping and trying to pull it together for the sake of looking good to others. Hubby suggested this morning that I may need to check myself in some place, has actually gotten to that point? I like to hope it hasn’t but what do I know?
Yeah. She’s smiling. But don’t let that fool you. Look into her eyes. She’s breaking inside.