Trying to keep from falling apart!

Morning walks with my puppy usually clears my mind, but then I return home and the sadness starts to sink in. Some days are better than others, but today I just feel unusually sadden and for the life of me I can’t explain it.!!!!  Had a small anxiety attack last night before bed and didn’t get much sleep. Tossing and turning, up and down, my mind is on an emotional roller coaster and I’m stuck up in the air. I read a scripture this morning and it read: “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens” Ecclesiastes 3:11 and I wonder when is it my time? Feels like I have been in this dark clouded season for years with no end in sight!  And when you can’t explain how you are feeling to your own spouse, it creates some sort of wall between us when I need him the most. I’m falling apart slowly, hoping and trying to pull it together for the sake of looking good to others. Hubby suggested this morning that I may need to check myself in some place, has actually gotten to that point? I like to hope it hasn’t but what do I know?

Yeah. She’s smiling. But don’t let that fool you. Look into her eyes. She’s breaking inside.



Published by Olivia B. Shepherd

Welcome, My name is Olivia Shepherd, and I am the founder of this awesome blog about depression and mental illness. I started this blog in 2016 after being diagnosed with Major Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I didn't have anybody to talk too or share my feelings with, so I decided to share them publicly to help others. I'm passionate and dedicated to bringing awareness about mental health, especially in the African American community. I also want to empower your voice to speak up and fight the stigma surrounding this illness. I’m also the founder of AshesToBeauty Mentoring & Outreach, a virtual online service dedicated to to the positive development and accelerated recovery of girls and women who have experienced abuse and depression, Ashes To Beauty strives to empower women to take their lives back by providing life skill education, one-on-one mentorship and impactful personal tools by which these impacted women can build the foundation for a successful future. Look forward to having you read my blog, 𝓞𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓪 𝓑. 𝓢𝓱𝓮𝓹𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓭 💋

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